December 2008
The only thing that makes family reunions...
The Scientist covered by Johnette Napolitano
...
I don't know how to love myself.
Suffering from a little dose of self-loathing
I remember last Christmas. It wasn’t that pleasant, I don’t think that it ever will be. It was sad, miserable, and I suffered a very bad hangover. I was angry, I was depressed, it was all just fueled by an arguement that I can’t really remember anymore. Fuck that. I just remembered what we fought about.
I just didn’t like how last year’s holidays ended up for me....
I had another nightmare tonight. Some pretty lady vamp was trying to chew on my throat while we were conducting a major sleepover at the college campus.
A cold is caused by micro-orgasms in your nose.
We travelled to the province today, which was a 4 hour car trip.
We go to that place once a year to celebrate my great-grandmother’s birthday. She just turned 98. There’s nothing much to do there but sit and sleep and talk. It’s the province. ‘Nuff said.
What I really enjoyed was the food though. It’s only in the province where I can eat actual exotic stuff. Our...
Lito: Jesssssssssieeeeeeeeeee
Jess: Litooooooooooooo
Lito: imboreeeeeeeeed
Jess: daaaaaaaaaance
Jess: porn?
Jess: dancing porn?
Jess: 8D
Lito: I was just thinking of the same thing
Alek: Whatcha doiiiiiin~?
Jess: Bloggin' bout a nightmare I had, that the world was ending then this cool goth chick saved my ass. 8D
Alek: lolwot
Alek: You and your crazy lesbo dreams!
Jess: I love my crazy lesbo dreams ;A;
I had a somewhat long and nightmarish dream a few minutes ago. I don’t really remember where it started or how far back I can actually remember. I think I met her during a lunch date in my dream. (Let’s give “her” the name Sam) I can’t really recall who we were with, but I think I invited her over to my house afterwards.
Now this is the part of the dream that I can...
Lively-lovely part 2
Paw: DID IT!!
Jess: Post the conversation NOW!!!
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Paw: Oh teacher, btw... Jessie said that you were lovely, and I quote
Tina: Yikes... what do you mean LOVELeY
Paw: I do not knowwwww
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Jess: GODDAMNIT
Jess: You didn't explain that it was a TYPO
Paw: Nuh-uh
Jess: Explain eeeeeeet
Paw: NO! *rants* no no no!!
Paw: You do it. 8D
Paw never fails to make me laugh
Paw: Hey, T. Tina's OL o_O
Jess: Yis. We talked for a bit, she's rather lovely
Paw: Fantastic
Jess: LIVELY
not... lovely...
BAH. Both works.
Paw: I'll tell her you said that :))
Stereophonics - Maybe Tomorrow
Maybe tomorrow,...
copycats:
“With or Without You” by Keane
...
I feel so lost... so alone... so confused
I have this little sentence running over and over my head for days now. It’s just one of those things that you can’t get rid of until you acknowledge it in writing. Well… it is for me anyway.
I keep catching myself saying this phrase over and over again and it would send me spiraling into this whirlpool of thoughts.
“I’ve died once.”
There has to be some...
Chase: Remember the first year we all got together, K? When we hid in Alex's basement and watched R-rated movies on cable, and Gert told us what all the dirty jokes meant, even though she was wrong half the time? Why can't it still be like that? How come we didn't get to have crazy-long childhoods like every other spoiled brat in this country?
Karolina: Gert used to say that kids spend their lives wanting to be adults, and adults spend their lives wanting to be kids.
Chase: Hn. What do you think Gert wanted?
Karolina: I don't know. She just spent her life living.
So I got myself a Twitter account →
I’d like to blame deviantart for such an occurence. The new profile pages they have up there are compatible with Twitter so… I was all “Yeah, sure, why not?”
Abet: My horoscope says: "You will achieve many goals today, and many people will be quite impressed." But I didn't do anything at all today.
Jess: I'm impressed
For some reason, I feel rather defeated right now. I feel beaten-up, as if I just lost something very important to me. I don’t really know why, but I’m just so… broken.
I find it to a mystery.
For some weird-ass reason, every time I go to church with my family I feel angry. I get frustrated, annoyed, irritated, and I don’t know why. Such feelings are very common whenever...
I didn’t get any decent sleep last night, I was just overrun with nightmares of dead people. When I think about it, I don’t think I’ve slept any good for the past few days.
I think I’ve been watching too many episodes of the Ghost Whisperer.
Frou Frou - Breathe In
I think it’s really...
I'm a very slow walker
…and it irratates the hell out of my parents and some other friends. It’s not really my fault if I want to enjoy the scenery while walking.
I lie.
I actually get really exhausted if I try and walk fast. I’m just lazy. But… the scenery is just an advantage of this laziness. Honestly.
But if I do have to walk fast, I make a little game out of it. Like… trying to...
something about love.
mimisaurus:
professionalwidow:
Love is not that perfect little thing in movies and books, all wrapped up in it’s pretty package and holiday paper. No, love is scarred. Love is terrifying. Love rises and falls, leaving it’s survivors to cower in the wake. Love comes with chains and rejoicing. Love is flawed and perfect. It comes when we are not expecting it, and hides behind dumpsters...
Happy Halloween!
(via krispayne)
Just like before, I want to write about family gatherings and how I am unable to tolerate them for a good amount of time. Sadly, I can’t really find the right words to put together.
Oh well. My point is across anyway. That’s what’s important.
WatchBlue October - Hate Me
Rare it is for me to encounter a song and video that would drive me to tears.
This song was written for the lead singer’s mother… I can only relate so much. Hahahaha
Sophie B. Hawkins - As I Lay Me
I’m sharing...
My home is a person, not a place.
And I am terribly terribly homesick.
I look at the mirror, and yet I don't see myself.
That’s it. I’m going insane. I’m going insaaaaaaane.
I'm going crazy. Yes... I believe I am...
Cabin Fever
I think I’m pining away; suffering this little misery of loneliness gripping into my heart.
I don’t know what to do. Or how to entertain myself, for that matter. My mind needs constant stimulation to spark it from this tiny pit of despair. The only thoughts that accompany me as of this moment are those of immortality and death. Vampires, even. I am drifting between fantasy and reality...